Harap-Harap Cemas

Harap-harap cepas = anxious with hardly hopping

Guys, have you ever been in a kind of feeling that we usually called 'Harap-harap Cemas'?? Huhuhu... it sorely very bad. Some time ago, I've ever told a story about my work-life, when there was an Internal Vacancy that I took part in it. It might be not common for many companies, when the superiors in one of division need a person who incharge in management things for the department then the superiors opening a vacancy for Internal. Indeed, a company that I worked not seldomly do that things due to a position not afforded by a new person.

Several days ago, an email sent by one of senior division manager of our company, told that a position would be vacant in the near future, a few persons invited to fill that position and I included in the criteria which determined.

There are many steps must be passed by the candidates, but I don't really know how many candidates will attending that Internal Vacancy, and for sure I don't know who others.

Masih dengan sistem yang sama pada saat ada Internal Vacancy beberapa bulan yang lalu, seleksi awal dilakukan dengan mengisi form yang gw dapet pada saat email undangan gw terima. Sebentuk form yang di beri nama STAR (Situation, Task, Action, and Result), jadi di form itu gw diminta untuk mengisikan apa aja yang pernah gw lakukan dalam 3 tahun belakangan.

For example, in the last 3 years I've been getting my position as assistant to something for Logistics and Operational in one of my company branch then my daily activity should be related to inventory management, from receivement to turn over, handling system, controlling all goods as well, employee management to make sure it still based on standard and operational procedures,etc. What a hectic job, rite? Tapi jangan over predicting yah, I'm just an ordinary employee who still could make faultness, dibentak-bentak sama atasan kalo the reports not provided as what my superiors want, masih ditelp kalo ada hal-hal tambahan yang harus gw kerjakan even diluar waktu kerja, pokonya masih bawahan lah...

Nah, gw berharap kesempatan yang dateng sekarang bisa merubah semuanya menjadi lebih baik, let say I'll be promoted for that Internal Vacancy. Sekarang memasuki beberapa hari menjelang penyerahan STAR form, frankly I didn't finished it yet, ngga tau kenapa kok bawaannya males banget buat ngerjain form itu, gw berasa seperti telah berada di zona nyaman, then it's hard for me to take my ass move on from my recent position, mungkin udah berasa nyaman dalam kondisi dikejar date line laporan-laporan, diomelin bos kalo laporannya terasa done in instant period a.k.a keburu-buru, tambahan tugas yang ngga kenal waktu, dan hal-hal lain yang membuat gw merasa bodoh karena harus diarahin sama orang yang sama sekali ngga tau gimana gw dibesarkan...

I need the way to move on, but I'm not yet have a spirit even the opportunity straightly standing in front of me... give me suggestion please...